feels like shouting

My day practically revolved around STR until 8 pm. I did my whole RRL today and I mean the whole thing. First, I couldn’t find my purple clear folder that contained all the sources I had from last quarter. Yes, that includes the ones I even went all the way to UP Los Baños for. That’s why all my sources are probably from the internet. Second, I lost the part of the RRL I made during class, which makes me wonder why the hell I did one in the first place. Due to these circumstances, I had to start my RRL from scratch and to make matters worst I had to do it on the weekend before the finals. Unfortunately, I was so tired from my earlier class yesterday and for other reasons, I wasn’t able to do anything for STR and for any other subject for that matter. So I ended up waking at 5 in the morning today to start with my RRL. My progress was pretty good this morning but my pace slowed down probably because I got so sick of staring at the computer all morning. I spent that whole time in front of the computer, except for eating my basic meals and getting snacks. I even went to the extent of taking a bath at 5 in the afternoon just before went to mass because I had no time to do so. I got home from mass at around 7:30 in the evening, just in time make some few changes and submit my RRL at the exact deadline, which is at 8.

After having like a second of fulfillment, I now move on to my elocution for English that I have not even prepared for the whole weekend. I just hate elocutions. Making matters worst is the fact that my class is full of people that are good in acting and/or speeches and I’m not good in either. Gaaaaah!!! I’m so nervous for the elocution and I am so close to hyperventilating. Unluckily, I won’t. I so don’t want to do it tomorrow. If I do I just want to get it over it quickly and I really hope I don’t do anything utterly embarrassing.

If I recall correctly, we have tons of requirements to do and I’ve only done 1. I have no idea how I’m suppose to survive this week. To think I was even planning to improve my grades this quarter. I’m seriously panicking over our finals. At first, I was planning to read the English book tomorrow and then I realized we’re having our Chem finals on the same day! English or Chem? Chem or English? If only I didn’t so much requirements at the same week, it would be so much easier for me to concentrate on the finals. I can’t believe they put hell week at the same week as the finals. How harsh do these people get? Everything just makes me want to shout at the top of my lungs!